Your endless love

Your endless love pouring down on us

Affords us 

    the freedom to praise you anew 

Even when 

     we are overwhelmed by the bustling 

of our busy day,

     with You as our starting point, 

     each day, 

     each step 

is made is all the more 

     precious 

Thank you Jesus ❤️

Travelling over  10 hours on the train from point A to B, has afforded me the time to worship – as well as spend time with each of my children and they with each other:)


***​​God never ceases to amaze me with His hand in our lives – sometimes He is subtle, sometimes it’s a whack over our head:)  

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I lift my eyes 

heaven bound 

My stomach in knots 

Silently calling upon my Lord

Million and zillions of voices a heavenly din
Redeemed and set free of our sins

Me

Our journey is immensely personal, and our relationship with God even more so

You

I can only watch, and support your journey in prayer – myself walking closely with Christ with the guidance of the Holy Spirit 

My journey in the Glow of the Holy Spirit is a personal one

Whether it be when I  first accepted Christ as a child with wide eyed trust

Or as a youth

Or as an adult when we’ve been broken in our life’s journey

Or it can be throughout our lives as live events draws us closer to God with each rift in our lives 

It is immensely unique and different for each of us

Just as we experience our relationships, lived experience and understanding differently from one another

There may be parallels or similarities and they can offer us a map of understanding our journey but in end each of us have a unique and personal experience with God 

I wait upon the Jesus

To guard my heart and soul from repeating the mistakes of old

Where walking on my own has lead to a replay in technicolor 

Despair and overwhelmed 

Only when your descent upon me and guard me against acting out rashly can I stand strong

Grounded in the Spirit 

Patience and maturity to make the right decision
You’ve walked a long and winding journey with me

Always faithful 

Never abandoning a sinner like me

Your anchor always helping me weather the storm 
 

Happy 15th Birthday Son!

14 years and 5 months ago, my husband and I received the most precious gift from God – a bundle of joy from South Korea.

At 42, I a was a mom! Those tumultuous and self centered years of meandering through life, faded into the background as I held him in my arms.

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We had prepared ourselves with many self help books for newbie parents. Resourceful guides to help us through the first 24 months of our son’s developmental progress. Nothing prepared me for the act of selflessness that comes with caring for an infant(s) – and although I thought I was prepared to be a new mom – I wasn’t.  It was humbling.

We had given up hope of having children – it was just going to be the two of us, until that summer when my sister and her husband entrusted Dan and I with the care of their two young children while they went on vacation. It was a life changing experience.  We discovered the joy of children, and imagined being parents.   We wanted a family – and my biological clock was ticking.  Adoption was the only option for us!

We placed all our hopes in God to fill the hole in our lives. How I must have whined daily and I’m sure I was a pain in the neck as I scribbled away in my prayer journal.

With every stroke of the pen, with every prayer I asked God for a child.    My daily prayers were simple and full of hope.   I even gave God a list of what I wanted in our child.  Oh I can imagine God’s lift eyebrows as I look back on those prayers.

God you are all forgiving, all merciful, and all glorious!!  You have done great thing in my life!
All my hope is in you!

We went through the adoption process in December 2011, and had our application in by March, and our bundle of joy arrived in July 2012.  God’s hand was present throughout the process, and when he arrived at the airport, he was 4 months old.  Surround by family and friends, we welcomed him into our lives.  Our promise to God – to bring him up within His embrace.

Oh there were many challenges of taking care of an infant.   After 21 years together, we went through a period of adjustment.   Each day saw our love grow deeper as we fell in love with our son.  Living in the moment, we savored and appreciated the new challenges in our lives.   Each day was a learning experience, from being panicky and nervous parents, to watching him pull his first temper tantrum at 24 months, to the tenderness and love as we embraced being parents under God’s hands is precious.

Dear God,

You gave Dan and I what we could handle – both spiritually, and in our lives.  You have taught me many life lessons about being a believer, a mom, a wife, and a teacher.

The joy of being a mom, is also a life long process where each thought, idea, inspiration, goal, ability is examined and made new. Along with trials to my patience, attitude, prejudices, bias, and character flaw mirrored and revealed – You Dear Jesus, guide me towards change.

“Down on my knees again surrendering all…I’m desperate for you…. drench my soul, I hunger for you….”. I Surrender- Hillsong Live Cornerstone

Thank you God for the gift of answered prayer!
Thank you Jesus for guiding me to be the best mom I can be. For showing me daily my flaws and short coming as I interact with my son – with my children.  Thank you for your grace, that with You in me, I can make the effective changes to be an awesome mom. Thank you for always being there to get me back on track when I make a wrong turn ❤